Love

compassion-1In all seriousness, doing something of this nature terrifies me. Simply because I feel that I am not qualified to write a sermon. I do not feel that I could teach something. But the greatest fear of is that I know that God is going to unhinge some things that I have in my philosophy about myself.  What I am going to speak on is something that I rarely do for myself. Jesus has, well, continues to have compassion for people, like you and me. I feel that He wants me to learn that He simply loves me and wants me to be close, intimate with Him again. This story is close to my heart because there are parts of myself that I see on both sides.

Let’s read John 8:1-11,

1but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. Early in the morning he came again to the temple. All the people came to him, and he sat down and taught them. 3The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery, and placing her in the midst they said to him, “Teacher, this woman has been caught in the act of adultery. 5Now in the Law, Moses commanded us to stone such women. So what do you say?” This they said to test him, that they might have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground. 7And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.”8 And once more he bent down and wrote on the ground. But when they heard it, they went away one by one, beginning with the older ones, and Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. 10 Jesus stood up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” 11 She said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.”

Jesus asked those without sin to cast the first stone, since it was custom to stone people in those times. However, no one was without except Jesus. How can we as people judge another, when we have sinned ourselves?

Matthew 7:1-2

1“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.

Not one person should judge another, for how we judge another, we will be judged. No one stayed to judge the woman, because they would in turn have to stone themselves for the sins that they committed.

Jesus was compassionate towards the woman that they brought to Him. He forgave her for her sins, telling her to sin no more. Now that tells me many things, but the thing that sticks out the most to me, is that he did not condemn her, He did not stone her. He in fact, He just told her that her sins had been forgiven, that she is loved unconditionally, and to not continue in the same lifestyle that she was in before.

Jesus’ compassion moves through my heart wildly, because I fail in that area myself. God simply reminds me often how he loves me unconditionally and how my love is supposed to be towards myself and towards others. I feel as if Jesus was telling the woman, well, myself that “You do not have to give yourself away to anyone except for me, that I am more than enough for you and I do not want you to continue the path that you are going.” No one knows what was written in the sand between Jesus and the woman, however I feel that Jesus wrote about love. Tell her or anyone that is in her place that they are loved. I can see Jesus writing “For I love you more than you will ever know, daughter or son. You are redeemed and made whole. Have peace in your soul because you are my masterpiece.” In close, I feel that God wanted to state a reminder about what love was and how it should be displayed. But no one can compare to what Jesus as done on the Cross. . We are given a reminder in 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

 

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Warrior Program:Thrive, Level 1: Whatever It Takes Consulting

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There is a program called Thrive that I am wanting to tell you about. The program was developed through Whatever It Takes Consulting to enrich an individual’s walk with the Lord. Pastor Jacob Diaz, from San Antonio, TX  brings the lessons each week. Each lesson is different but also connected. Each lesson brings a different perspective to the Word and encourages you to reach out to other people in your community, who may not have a relationship Christ. Or renew a relationship with an old friend, who knows who Christ is but hasn’t be walking with Him (discipleship). Throughout Thrive, God has really shown Himself to me through each session. Each session is powerful in their own way. Whether it is how to put on your Armor (Eph 6) to face the giants (obstacles/circumstances) that stand in your way (the story of David and Goliath).

With that said, I want to give you an excerpt from my notebook (which by the way is full due to the lessons!), but first things first, the text/reference is from:

1 Samuel 17:33-54 ESV

33 And Saul said to David, You are not able to go against this Philistine to fight with him, for you are but a youth, and he has been man of war from his youth. 34 But David said to Saul, Your servant used to keep sheep for his father. And when there came a lion, or a bear, and took a lamb from the flock, 35 I went after him and struck him and delivered it out of his mouth. And if he arose against me, caught him by his beard and struck him and killed him. 36 Your servant has struck down both lions and bears, and this uncircumcised Philistine shall be like one of them, efor he has defied the armies of the living God. 37 And David said, fThe LORD who delivered me from the paw of the lion and from the paw of the bear will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine. And Saul said to David, Go, gand the LORD be with you!

38 Then Saul clothed David with his armor. He put a helmet of bronze on his head andclothed him with a coat of mail, 39 and David strapped his sword over his armor. And hetried in vain to go, for he had not tested them. Then David said to Saul, I cannot go withthese, for I have not tested them. So David put them off. 40 Then he took his staff in hishand and chose five smooth stones from the brook and put them in his shepherd’s pouch.His sling was in his hand, and he approached the Philistine.

41 And the Philistine moved forward and came near to David, hwith his shield-bearer infront of him. 42 And when the Philistine looked and saw David, he disdained him, for hewas but a youth, iruddy and handsome in appearance. 43 And the Philistine said to David,Am I ja dog, that you come to me with sticks? And the Philistine cursed David by hisgods. 44 The Philistine said to David, Come to me, and I will give your flesh kto the birdsof the air and to the beasts of the field. 45 Then David said to the Philistine, You come tome with a sword and with a spear and with la javelin, but I come to you in the name of theLORD of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, ewhom you have defied. 46 This day theLORD will deliver you into my hand, and I will strike you down and cut off your head. mAndI will give the dead bodies of the host of the Philistines this day nto the birds of the air andto the wild beasts of the earth, othat all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel,47 and that all this assembly may know that pthe LORD saves not with sword and spear.qFor the battle is the LORD‘s, and he will give you into our hand.

48 When the Philistine arose and came and drew near to meet David, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet the Philistine. 49 And David put his hand in his bag and took out a stone and slung it and struck the Philistine on his forehead. The stone sank into his forehead, and he fell on his face to the ground.

50 So David prevailed over the Philistine with a sling and with a stone, and struck the  Philistine and killed him. There was no sword in the hand of David. 51 Then David ran and stood over the Philistine rand took his sword and drew it out of its sheath and killed him and cut off his head with it. When the Philistines saw that their champion was dead,sthey fled. 52 And the men of Israel and Judah rose with a shout and pursued the Philistines as far as GathSeptuagint; Hebrew Gai” href=”https://www.esv.org/1+Samuel+17/#f6-“>6 and the gates of tEkron, so that the wounded Philistines fell on the way from uShaaraim as far as vGath and Ekron. 53 And the people of Israel came back from chasing the Philistines, and they plundered their camp. 54 And David took wthe head of the Philistine xand brought it to Jerusalem, but he put his armor in his tent.

From the Lesson: Facing Your Giants

“We grow by faith by faith. David was prepared to shepherd the people of Israel due to being in the pasture taking care of his sheep. David’s ability to trust in the Lord is laid out when David speaks about his fight against the bear, lion, Goliath, then tens of thousands. […] Our preparation starts where no one sees you. Our private victories set us up for our public success.” 

Lesson that I had learned in this lesson: We are given an obstacle that we are meant to overcome. How you overcome is through the Word, through prayer, through discipleship/mentorship, and through Praise and Worship. I am constantly being reminded that staying in the Word helps me overcome my depression and whenever I feel anxious. I know that being in alignment with God helps me to change my perspective on life.  This is only a glimpse, you need to come back for more blogs or go to http://www.whateverittakeshow.com, WIT-Warrior.

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I am not perfect….

…. nor do I care to be. I am coming to the understand that I am putting myself off as a person who has all their sh*t together. This is totally not true, I wish that people would stop thinking about me in that way. There are sooo many things that are wrong with my mentality, that it is not even funny. Here are some things that I wish people would understand about me:

  1. I struggle with depression, like it can get bad and IT IS worse in the winter time.
  2. I have an addiction, not going to say what it is on here, but if you know me. Then you know what it is.
  3. I struggle with my body image and how to dress myself. Growing up, fashion wasn’t a huge emphasis for me because I know I needed to thrive in my education.
  4. I swear from time to time, depending on my mood.
  5. I am passive-aggressive, trust me, it’s bad! I didn’t know how bad until I did a brain map (which is a different post).

BUT here are some things that I do know and believe, because of WHO lives inside of me, so let me break that down for you (yes, I am aware that statement is passive-aggressive(ish)). The one who is perfect is Jesus Christ. Last time I checked, that isn’t who I am, but I do know He lives inside of me. I know He (the Holy Spirit) is the one who comes to comfort me when my pillow is tear stained. I know that Abba (The Father or Daddy in Hebrew) guides my every step that I take because I simply ask Him for directions. I know that Jesus has paid for my sins of yesterday, today, and tomorrow. So, when you see me, what is that you really see? I can’t answer that for you, but please know, I am not perfect on my own. I am perfectly broken and in need of a Savior and His mercy and grace. Here is somethings that helped me feel loved, because trust me, I feel unloved at the moment. Especially since I can’t where to plug in at.

  1. When it comes to my depression, nothing like beautiful flowers and or a picture of a sunrise brighten’s my day aka LITERALLY SEND ME A PICTURE (please) or send me flowers (which would be nice, single females need to be sent flowers by someone, sometimes).
  2. When it comes to my addiction, just send me a prayer. I do my best to reach out to people, but then there are times when I don’t want to be a burden to people. By the way, I honestly do feel like I am a burden at times (you learned something new about me.)
  3.  Just simply remind me how beautiful I am and that I am Daughter of a True King (thank you Angie for reminding me this past week).
  4. I know swearing makes people twitch a little bit, please let me know that it bothers you, I will do my best to accommodate for you. It is something that can easily be changed, doesn’t mean you have to stop being friends with me due to that.
  5. My passive-aggressive nature is going to be worked on through Neurofeedback, it isn’t going to be an easy change but I am grateful that it will be changing. I wish I had control over it but I do not. Please forgive me, if I do come off that way to you.

With all that said, if I have hurt you in anyway, please forgive me. That truly is never my intention. Sometimes, I don’t realize what I say in the moment or after. Don’t be afraid to have an open-dialogue with me, I am not going to bite you or anything. Please understand, I guard myself because I have been let down so many times and it just sucks to be let down. So, if you want to know who I am, ask me out for coffee. I am not as bad as you assume I am. I care deeply about people, even to the point when it can affect me (different blog). So, if you want to encourage me (if God lays it on your heart to do so) then write me a letter or send me verses, like handwritten style (I do like to keep the mail man (or woman) having a job). So, that is who I am, a broken vessel who is used by God.

Shalom

I am beginning to LOVE my location

Just beginning to process the words that is my title to this blog, “I am beginning to LOVE my location.” When I was living in Killeen, I know that there were things that I liked about Killleen, but I know couldn’t truly say I love Killeen. Just living there for over 30 years, you would expect me to say, “Killeen is my home, I want to see it thrive to it’s fullest potential.” But unfortunately, that thought never came to my mind until I moved down here to San Antonio. Trust me when I say, I do want to see Killeen thrive and max out it’s potential and to show the world what loving your neighbor is really like. Yes, some people are introverts and don’t like meeting random people. Thankfully extroverts help to even that out.

Speaking of being extroverted, it takes a lot of courage to walk into another place of worship or a support group. I would have to say, I felt a little out of place walking into a new church. I’ve never felt that way before because I am the one, who normally goes with friends to a church they are wanting to try and ask all the questions! haha I guess it was time for the role to be reversed. I come to find out, as much as I crave to have a Titus 2 women’s relationship, most of the churches down here aren’t necessarily into mixing the generations. I thought that was odd, but I told the pastor or small group leader that I am into breaking molds (probably my own rebellious streak you are going to find when it comes to my faith and when I am craving to grow).

In my last blog or facebook post, I wrote something along the lines that I will praise God on the mountain tops and valley lows. Whenever I am on the mountain or in the valley, I know I need to keep God’s Word hidden in my heart and mind, because He deserves my praise. Thinking and understanding that, I have come to the grips that I may be staying in Texas for the rest of my life and just traveling around the world on mission trips or just vacation. But I know at this moment, I am meant to love the people in the city of San Antonio and meeting them where they are because other people may not know how to love others where they are in life. Sometimes, we all have our eyes closed because we wish to not see what is happening in the world, because of it’s darkness and brokenness. People wonder where has our humanity gone? I wonder, why do you think it is gone? Why don’t you show the world some of humanity and by doing the right thing, allows another individual to demonstrate the same action! Don’t expect other people to do what you do, they are created DIFFERENT and they process things differently too! We as people are not meant to be stuck in a mold, we are all meant to be unique.

At this moment, my uniqueness is currently my motivator to make a lasting change in other people’s lives, whether it is people I encounter in my current job or those who I’ve worked with in the past. Everything and Everyone is where they are meant to be at that particular time, don’t question it. I am thankful that God has moved me from where I was because  I would never come to the realization that I have started to fall in love with this city, San Antonio and will always have a place in my heart for Killeen (and the people that live there). Time to dive into community projects and start causing a ripple effect! Do something great! Be amazing!! Thrive and Strive!! Hustle and Grind!!

My apologies, if this blog seems scattered. I am just currently in that set of mind. 🙂 Nothing to be too concerned about! 🙂 Buenos Noche!

A New Beginning

“In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can”
– Nikos Kazantzakis

As some know, I had started a new journey in my life in a different town. Just learning how to set up multiple accounts and to address issues that are currently happening in my apartment; is just plainly funny. We go through this ideal while we are younger that, “I can’t wait to be a grown up, I can make up my own rules and I can do WHATEVER I WANT!” Oh how I wish I could have the days when I was a child back. Who as an adult actually likes paying bills?!?!? Now, please understand, I do like creating budgets! I know it sounds weird, but very much true. I believe that we, as young adults, should know how to budget our expenses to know what we have, what we are able to spend, and to understand how badly we need the very item. (Sorry, that was a rant.) I wish that I could hug up on my parents everyday and tell them that I love them so much. Don’t worry, I take advantage every time that I get. But, I am here to spread my wings and grow into my own person.

I came down to San Antonio for a new job in the counseling field, specifically the substance abuse arena. How amazing is it that God provided this opportunity for me to grow in a professional sense and to gain awesome insight into the lives of addicts. Yes, I am truly fascinated about the world of addiction, because if we are honest with ourselves, you and I, know that we all have a problem/addiction and it should be addressed when the time is right. Like how I was terminated from my job and God (Jehovah Jireh) provided an interview 11 days later, than 3 days after that. I received an email stating that I was hired. So, I was really out of employment for only 5-6 weeks (rough estimate). Like that is unheard of, BUT, God is so good and He does provide through whatever transition that you may currently be in your life.

But, when this opportunity had presented itself, I did question it a little bit. I think it was just the fear of being in a new place and not being around “people that I know”, but more importantly, not being around my parents. I am surely blessed when it comes to my parents, they have been gracious to me. They have been the earthly reminder of what GRACE is and how it is supposed to work in my life. For that, I am forever thankful for them and the example that they lead. Being down here in San Antonio will cause me to grow in more ways than one. First things first, it will help me grow in my relationship in God because I am going to have to LEAN on Him in order to get me through this transition. Second, it will help me create new connections, whether it is through a missional connections or through my professional connections. Third, it will help me to grow in my personal relationships, because we are created to be relational creatures, who need and crave relationships to shape and grow us as individuals! (Side rant, if you are a believer in Jesus Christ, you should definitely get with a mentor or someone who can help you guide you in your life. Also, pray for someone else to disciple! We are meant to make other disciples in this world because it is filled with brokenness and we need to remember the Gospel for our own heart and for those that we interact with on a daily basis, whether it is at work, school, church, and other places that I may not think of. BE THE LIGHT WHERE ONLY DARKNESS SHINES! End of side rant)

I am excited to start new adventures, whether it is through visual arts or through meeting up with random fitness groups in the park! Either way, this whole experience is an amazing opportunity and I am PRAISING God for what He has done for me, while I was in my lowest valleys and on top of my highest mountain tops. So either way, Praise be to God!

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New blogs to appear in the near future, about what I’ve been doing or changing about myself down here in San Antonio!

How to stick to the autoimmune, or leaky gut, diet

2015 is definitely a year of change, time to learn and adapt.

Healing Path Acupuncture

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So you’ve either just gotten the results back from your food sensitivity test or your practitioner says you need to follow the autoimmune diet, also called the leaky gut diet, to manage your autoimmunity. The autoimmune diet comes as a shock to many due its strict limitations and compliance can be tough. The trick to sticking to the autoimmune diet is understanding how to work with your mind to establish new habits.

Although a goal is important — say someone wants to manage her Hashimoto’s hypothyroidism, an autoimmune disease that affects the thyroid gland — research shows a goal alone is not enough to change your habits. We’ve all made promises to reform only to quickly succumb to the spell of temptation. Research shows we are more motivated by the daily habits toward that goal than the goal itself. The key is not in the big sweeping gesture fueled by…

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2015 Vow

2015 is the year of embracing change, is the year where my wall of insecurity will come crumbling down. Now, when I say the year 2015, I mean the year between one birthday to another, all 365 days in between the year. (Yes, very egocentric!) I have come to the point in my life, where I am tired of making plans, I am tired of giving up on myself, I am tired of being unhappy in a place where I am not flourishing, I am tired of being stuck. The list of things I am tired of can go on and on, so I will spare you.

2015 will be the year, where most of the weight that I have vowed to come off, will finally begin to melt away. This is the year, where I will seek new adventures, being in one place is not sitting well with me anymore. This is the year, where I learn how to go more with the flow instead of constructing a route for everything to go. This is the year, where hopefully, I will be able to move.

What I vow to accomplish in 2015:

To stop doubting myself

To be more confident

To stop letting my fear of failure/success consume me

To have a passport (I WANT TO TRAVEL!)

To lose all my insecurities!

What is it that you are vowing to do this year?